take my books from my locker, being careful to not leave anything behind
so many people laughing in my mind
weirdo, nerd,loser bounce off the walls in my head
right now i wish i was already dead
walk down the street to my only happy place
must move quickly, time is not to waste
i wipe my tears from my face as people snicker
i pick up my pace and walk a little quicker
as far as i can remember, i have been the punching bag
since i was a child i have been so tired and sad
i never meant to be in the way
all i wanted was to be asked to play
i have fantasies of being taken somewhere
where no one will laugh and point and stare
I open the rot iron gate, to my only home
and walk down the path, as i search and roam
I find my only friends, laying side by side
With there date of birth, and the day that they died
memories come back of the day that it happend
and my life's happy times came to an end
a fiery hell came that day
and left me alone and took my parents away
i feel the pain each time i touch my face
each day i feel alone in this hellish place
no one understands the pain inside
that each day its the scars i try to hide
now here i stand, inbetween my past
i dont know how much longer i can last
i pull the piece of metal out and kneel down in between
i wish that people weren't so cruel and mean
i wish atleast they didnt care or bother
that it's my fault for my mother and father
each day its driven into me like a nail
all eternity, will be spent in hell
i was free and they were still inside
its all my fault that they died
i left them all alone, instead of going back to help
i tried to get to them, but the heat made my skin melt
i should have been braver, and got them out
i should have had courage and had no doubt
instead i stood there, watching my world twist and turn
and i watched all i've ever known, melt and burn
i will end my pain today, and end the guilt inside
im so afraid, but this time, i will not hide
i pull the gun to my head and recite my apology
i pull the trigger and end the very life of me
